Tuesday, June 5, 2007

I Love My Daughter

I love my daughter. The thought of her brings joy to my heart. I often get choked up when thinking about her. My computer screen is surrounded by her images. I'm often told how wonderful my wife and I are for all we are doing for her. That thought never entered my mind. My only response is to state all the wonderful things she has done/is doing for us. I lost my father when I was 22 due to his poor health. I'm far from being in ideal health. My daughter, and the memory of my father, are motivating me to take steps to do all I can to ensure I'll be around for her. True, timing is all in God's hand, but I'll do all I can as well.

Yes, I love my daughter. And I've yet to meet her. I only saw her picture for the first time just over a month ago. Three pictures to be exact. And they are months old. She is almost 10 months old and I've never met her. My daughter is in China waiting for us. Very soon, although it seems an eternity, we will go get her and bring her home and finalize her adoption. How can I love someone so much that I've never met? I'm reminded of a line in the movie, Where the Heart Is, (it's my wife's movie...I must have been in the same room when she was watching it) when Natalie Portman's character gives birth to her daughter. Upon seeing her she asks "How can I love somebody so much that I just met?" But I have never met my daughter and I love her. In her pictures she isn't smiling. I long to see her smile. To hear her giggle. To watch her sleeping. To feed her. To see her and her mom play together. To be called, "Daddy." To take a gazillion pictures of her. And yes, to change diapers for the first time in my life; something I've intentionally put off until I can do it for my own child. I simply can't wait to be a daddy.

As with every father, I have my worries. Will I be a good father? Will I raise her right? Will I teach her how to follow Jesus? Will I be a good example?...etc. Again, I know God is in control. I just need to follow Him and pray.

1 comment:

Mel said...

Congratulations to you and your wife Julianne!! Your daughter is beautiful and it looks like she will be coming to a home filled with much love. The name you have chosen for her is truly beautiful...and it brought to mind one of my favourite bible verses:

'Consider the lilies of the field...if God cares so wonderfully for flowers that are here today and gone tomorrow, won't He more surely look after you.' Matthew 6:28-30.

So enjoy the wonder and adventure of parenthood knowing that your Heavenly Father loves you very much and is actively working towards helping you to be the best Dad to Lily Grace.

God Bless!!